I haven’t had the ability or the drive to write lately – a crazy work schedule and sick infants have made it nearly impossible, and stress of life made it emotionally difficult but now, now I have something important to share.
As of yesterday I’m officially on testosterone injections.
These bi-weekly shots promise physical changes starting in a month or two, eventually leading to all kinds of effects like voice changes, fat redistribution, and facial hair. This has been a difficult decision that I made long ago and have spent the last 2 years making damn sure, and convincing everyone around me, that it’s the best decision for me. I haven’t come about this lightly.
After my first shot the nurse asked how I felt – “sore” I mumbled. I’m shy with this stuff and horrible about talking about my feelings.
I am sore, the thing hurts more after a few hours apparently, although less this morning than last night thankfully. But more than that – I feel so relieved. It’s as if this little shot, that produced no effects other than a headache, is representative of my future. The symbolic movement forward so to speak. Finally I am on the road to living more authentically and after making this irreversible step I feel nothing but elation, calmness, and hope. A hope that felt impossible not long ago.
If you know me personally, you’ll probably be finding these changes interesting, maybe a bit jarring, but please be patient and kind – just as you have been. If it wasn’t for the support of the people around me I don’t think I would be brave enough to take this step in the first place.
All aspects of my life are starting to move forward in a more positive way and I feel like this is the last thing that needed to fall into place for me to be able to embrace my future.
I will keep updates on here, but I’m also going to be posting some videos over on my youtube channel.
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