I haven’t had the ability or the drive to write lately – a crazy work schedule and sick infants have made it nearly impossible, and stress of life made it emotionally difficult but now, now I have something important to share.

As of yesterday I’m officially on testosterone injections.

These bi-weekly shots promise physical changes starting in a month or two, eventually leading to all kinds of effects like voice changes, fat redistribution, and facial hair. This has been a difficult decision that I made long ago and have spent the last 2 years making damn sure, and convincing everyone around me, that it’s the best decision for me. I haven’t come about this lightly.

T chart

The chart the nurse gave me detailing usual time frame and what to expect.

After my first shot the nurse asked how I felt – “sore” I mumbled. I’m shy with this stuff and horrible about talking about my feelings.

am sore, the thing hurts more after a few hours apparently, although less this morning than last night thankfully. But more than that – I feel so relieved. It’s as if this little shot, that produced no effects other than a headache, is representative of my future. The symbolic movement forward so to speak. Finally I am on the road to living more authentically and after making this irreversible step I feel nothing but elation, calmness, and hope. A hope that felt impossible not long ago.

Needles make me really anxious, I get to stick these in my leg every other week

Needles make me really anxious, I get to stick them in my leg every other week.

If you know me personally, you’ll probably be finding these changes interesting, maybe a bit jarring, but please be patient and kind – just as you have been. If it wasn’t for the support of the people around me I don’t think I would be brave enough to take this step in the first place.

All aspects of my life are starting to move forward in a more positive way and I feel like this is the last thing that needed to fall into place for me to be able to embrace my future.

I will keep updates on here, but I’m also going to be posting some videos over on my youtube channel.

The twins hanging out as we wait for my apppointment

The twins hanging out as we wait for my appointment.

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